So I met a boy…
Sorry i’ve been so MIA, i’ve just been chilling on this thing called Cloud 9!
We are gonna call this guy “the boy”. Not old boy not new boy but THEE boy. It’s so funny how God works sometimes. I reached such a low place end of last month. I mean low! I started seeing this one guy end of last month & a week later found out he was married. I was SO hurt. I remember sitting in my car just balling. Not crying because I couldn’t have him, crying because I was upset at the fact that people play with others people emotions like that. Like I really wanted to pursue a relationship and he just wanted to cheat on his wife. I was so hurt after that, I remember emailing my best friend about it. I thought I was going straight looney. Maybe I was just being too emotional about being single. I prayed that night like God I’m at rock bottom right now and I need you to give me some type of hope!
Two days later the boy arrived. Out of now where. Not really out of now where but what’s funny is he had been trying to get my attention for probably three weeks or even more prior to that and I was so oblivious to it. All that time since May “it” was there. He’s been so great. He always tells me “babe your great you’re so great”. I never have to guess how he feels about me. He tells me ALL the time. He makes me feel so comfortable. He and I talk everyday and all day and just love each others company. I caught myself the other day just sitting there and tearing up like wow this is what it feels like to feel love and affection in return. I’m just in awe. Kind of teetering on like wow when is this gonna fall apart.
I’ve never been this happy in a relationship before. EVER! We aren’t together but we are exclusively dating each other and taking it slow. Very slow. No sex slow lol. I like it this way. I like this place. I want to indulge in this feeling forever so i’m savoring it dammnit. Like Michael Jackson said “sometimes you have to let it sizzle”. We’ve made it clear to each other that we are not in this to waste each others time (even pinky swear’ed abotu it haha). Wherever this goes whether it be marriage or not Thank You Lord for letting me feel this feeling!