Music is My Muse

When I came up with the name for this blog, it truly was something that I totally believe in. Music sets my mood, sets how I dress, how I feel, my emotion. Just my all around EVERYTHING. A great thing for sure, until a song brings me back to a place that I don’t want to remember (I have several of those). That’s a whole other blog post. Moving along.. I love listening to Pandora while I work and they played today Musiq Soulchild “So Beautiful” and boy oh boy I had to take a minute! It’s something about that song that kind of puts me in a “thinking” kind of mood. Old boy says I overthink things too much, but I mean listen to the words of the songs…

Girl, don’t you know you’re so beautiful
I wanna give all my love to you, girl
Not just tonight but the rest of your life
I wanna be always here by your side

When he sings that song it sounds so sincere. Does this type of feeling from a guy not exist anymore? Maybe I have a bit of a tainted vision since i’ve been through a few too many bad apples. I can honestly say I’ve never felt this type of feeling towards me from a man i’ve been with. Sad right. Even in my 4 year relationship with my ex I never felt this kind of love. I know it exists at some point because I see it everyday in the lives of my parents relationship. My parents met 37 years ago, so since then has it slowly got thrown out the window to just show someone you unconditionally love them. I want the type of love that I don’t have one doubt in my mind that we are in this together and we love each other unconditionally. I know a few guys maybe reading this and thinking “you probably wouldn’t believe even if we did show it”, my answer to that is if I have to doubt and ask, then it means its not being shown.

Hey, maybe its just me overthinking as usual. When I hear this song, boy oh boy it just makes me want to fall in love with someone, and have them feel the same way for me.

Sounds like a beautiful feeling, hopefully one day I will find it.